Thursday 2 May 2013

On Being Made Anxious by Sheila Heti


I am a re-drafter. Here is what I do on a writing day: I sit and I get myself in a mess about sentences. I rock backwards and forwards, I consult my thesaurus, I pace in circles tugging at my moulting hair. On more than one occasion, my girlfriend has come home to find me weeping over the correct placing of a comma, as if it were a tormenting pea hidden under my mattress. And, when I reach the requisite number of pages, I print the whole thing out and I start again. (It’s worth remembering that I’m not writing Madame Bovary here. My novel features pornography-addicted cats, chiliastic cults and a Men’s Rights activist called Furious Patrick. I am quite possibly putting myself through hell for no good reason).

Still, Flaubert, I tell myself, would be on my side. Perfectionism is time-warranted, proven to work even at the cost of sanity and good health. Then the other day Sheila Heti, talking at the LRB shop, sweetly announced that “oh, no one drafts anymore”. She was, she said, no longer interested in style. There was something vaguely illicit about this, something naughty. My girlfriend nudged me with an air of triumph -see? Not everyone does this crazy shit- as the author began to read an excerpt from her autobiographical work. Hackles on alert, I waited for sloppiness, for errors. And, obviously, there were a few if you were looking. The odd word I might have removed, the odd phrase I would have struck a line through. But the main thing was; it worked. It was direct, it felt true, whatever true is, it was funny and naïve and open and fresh. A naivety that could only be the result, I hoped, of deliberate agonised craft. Couldn’t it?

As she read on, I felt, with my rewrites, my struggled-over plots and my prematurely creased forehead, like Rick Wakeman, interrupted in creating a triple gatefold, flugelhorn-heavy concept album by the sound of Pretty Vacant crunching from the speakers. Instantly obsolete, a brontosaurus lumbering through my paragraphs while sprightlier beasts leap on ahead. Now, if I have a belief system it lies in a) making stuff up and b) rewriting it an awful lot. And these beliefs are beginning to seem, well, a little bit old-hat. Not quite pre-Copernican but getting there.

A few words of caution. Ms Heti has told me via Twitter that she does redraft, just not in the laborious, faintly mad physical sense I described. Two, even if she doesn’t, she speaks in naturally beautiful finished sentences. Not everyone could dash out an autobiographical piece and make it read like hers (and her new book did take six years- she's not doing some Jack Kerouac spontaneous prose thing). Three, she said later on that she has, in fact, rediscovered fiction and can’t be placed naturally in any anti-making-things-up camp.

Still, it’s fair to say that in recent years the literary world (or the very narrow part of it known to English speakers) has experienced a loss of faith, both in literary stylishness and in the novel itself. A lot of writers find they no longer can sign up to the making-things-up and then-making-them-read-well project. Off the top of my head (in the new spirit of instantaneity) there’s David Shields calling for us to make it essayistic, make it a memoir, make it true. There’s Zadie Smith worrying if Tom McCarthy’s Spartan modernism is actually where it’s at. There’s Ian McEwan falling out of love with the novel, Will Self’s anxiety about the fictive conventions he’s used in most of his work, Karl Knausgard setting out to write his whole life. There’s been the critical backlash against the confident excesses of the 80s Granta generation, with their wars against clichés and their unfashionable belief in the value of stories. Clearly I’m conflating different arguments and examples here (you can be pro or anti literariness without being pro or anti fiction and many or most of those I mention would see themselves as revitalising not getting rid of novels), but you sense the general trend. If these discussions end in unconvincing affirmations of the need for fresh fictions, these tend to have an arriere garde feel to them. Resolute defenders of stylish novels can have a Fustian, High Anglican, quality, as though holding out against the barbarians, half-revelling in the dying of a form.  

I can think of a few reasons why the novel looks in trouble although obviously I’d be grateful for more. The Granta novel of the turn of the decade, with its ever-expanding cast-lists and forced desert-suited cosmopolitanism had become a silly thing, well worthy of a backlash. Critical theory has now reached the point that even novelists read it, with the sometimes paralysing results you might expect. TV shows have annexed a great deal of what used to be the turf of the novel (how many fat sagas has The Wire rendered instantly unnecessary?) When the book itself is under threat, then the future of the novel is hardly to be taken for granted. Technology has made patient Flaubertian redrafting seem oddly affected, like baking your own bread. Davids Foster-Wallace and Eggers have led to a new cult of sincerity. “Literariness” may even be subliminally associated with male power, with patriarch connoisseurs like Amis and Bloom. Time is short and if you have something to say, there’s the temptation to get on and say it with the minimum of artifice. Jot it down, upload it, make it sincere. Make it true.

It’s also quite possible that the novel has had a good run and is going the way of verse drama and music hall to be replaced by quick-scribbled autobiographies, instantly available online. Intriguing as many of the attempts to forge new forms are (I definitely look forward to reading Heti’s book), I find myself hoping otherwise; that in the end they end up lending fresh strength to, rather than replacing, the novel itself. If the novel has survived so long, it is surely because of the sponginess of the form, its ability to borrow from its rivals. Although this may just be my own feeble affirmation of faith. Certainly if the novel is to survive it will need serious thinking about what it can do. It will need hard work. It may even need a lot of re-drafting.